Too angry

Today, i started off my morning quite badly...

Wake up, arm kinda could not move... Have been sleeping on my left side for the past two days and my back don't really feel good without tossing and turning... Hence i missed my lesson which is my fault... Okie...

Then i receieved a phonecall at 9 plus and it was from my OB tutor... Miss Ho is a darn nice person but i just do not understand why some of them just got a grudge against her... Well, perception error i guess, whatever...

She was like, i have known that your group went to see the subject leader without my knowledge, i would need to see your whole group today... I stunned as i did not go to see the subject leader! Then i remembered my group leader mentioning that we should see the subject leader to show our SINCERITY... So i replied erm, i think so.. So my tutor was like, okie, fine, then please come and see me after school today...

When i ended the conversation, i know something is wrong.... I have a feeling that my tutor was just saying that she was going to find the subject leader to scare us.. I mean, we handed up the report late, it is really our fault and we have no right to argue... Never mind, so i sms my groupmates and found out that they really did go and see the subject head without me there and without me knowing... Call that a group...

Fine, so i went to school, had lecture, then was asking my group leader why did she go and see the subject leader? I mean, when you asked me that question, i already said no, we should not as we might be making things big.. Maybe our tutor did not intend to tell in the first place!!! Response: no, we should tell, show our SINCERITY..

Fine, i was fucked up and pissed already... Then i say maybe our tutor was trying to scare us so we will learn... Then my group leader can say: then it is her fault to say she will discuss with the subject leader but not do it.. She say what she must do what... *FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND* Wouldn't it be good if she was just to scare us and not make thing big? Sometimes i really wonder how the human brain works...

So we went to see our tutor and i love the comments she made... She say, why did you all go and find the subject leader, didn't i promise that i will talk to her and get it settled with asap then inform your group? Then a groupmate had to say, WE THOUGHT IT WOULD SHOW OUR SINCERITY... *FUCK WITH THE SINCERITY SHIT* Then my tutor ask, so what did the subject leader tell you.. I replied with i do no know, i was not there.. Can ask my group leader.. I know i very bitch, but i am sorry, you guys started it first...

Then she said by doing that, you guys are not showing me(my tuor) respect... I TOTALLY agree with what she say lah!!! I was extemely tempted to say, told you all already but NO, don't want to take my opinion into consideration.. Fine, so be it... I am just glad that my brains are much more sensible...

I am glad that it has been settled though we have to face the consequences by deduction of marks.. Okie, our fault, we deserve it... I am also to be blame and i do not deny it...

To sum up:

REALLY FUCKED UP WITH MY GROUP
FUCKED UP WITH MYSELF
FUCKED UP WITH SCHOOL
FUCKED UP WITH PROJECT
FUCKED UP DAY
Equals to my day... I am so damn pissed that i could really use a punching bag... Though i have to say that there are only 2 people in the group that i am not pissed with, the only one of the different gender and the only name that has 4 characters...